it was fun! meeting cousins whom i havent seen for 5, 10 years... wow how people change! and how some people don't! some of my cousins were barely recogniseable, some of them i remember as naughty little kids running around, making lotsa noise... its undescribable how strange it feels to meet these people you once knew yet kinda don't, and then again there not just friends or acquaintences, they're your kins. and i guess that changes things a little... like, u can just be yourself, they can just be them, and u'd have to take each other for who u are... which means things are very real, there's this unspoken bond between us just because we're related by blood, and so we really appreciate and accept each other for who we are.

just as i met the young, i also forged special ties with the old... i try to stand in their shoes when they see me for the first time since i was 5 or something... and to put it in my words, what i think they go through seems something like this, 'oh my holy crap! ah min has a daughter!? gosh she's so big! whoa this is scary! i must be old!' ok well maybe not... but yar... the usual 'whoa ur daughter's so old! whoa whoa whoa!' and my mom will be like 'yar, she eats rice u know...' hahaha i find it quite amusing coz i dont normally hear these things coz i rarely celebrate cny in the traditional way. but i think it's quite fun! visiting relatives and all... the older generation's inspired me to find my roots... i heard stories of their hardship and their sacrifices so that the next generation would be better off. so inexplicable is the selflessness love and life.

by the way,i have also been convinced that the Chinese are the most sophisticated and street smart people around, and thus i've resolved to maintain racial purity and not marry and angmoh just coz i want pretty kids. heh. don't i sound like hitler. i'm just kidding, but that's to quote one of my ozzie friends who was absolutely appalled that another of my friends found only caucasians hot.

i have 5 more days in singapore. how time flies

life was all well and peaceful for the past week or so. til love triangle nonsense came back to haunt me today. the enormity of the situation feels suppressed right now, but it has much potential to escalate to such an annoying one... i totally don't want to go back. haha i'm a drama mama, just to entertain myself, and perhaps u too.